Heelooo again! few more days to go and we are back to school! i'd love to go back to school, but there is ONE THING. ONE THING that would make me sad if i'm back to school..... -------
I can't go down to kk often go have tennis training! :( I am going to miss my coach! :l.
and well maybe i can only train with C. Rasyid. which he's totally BIAS. yeah whatever. at least i can get under the sun and sweat. HAHA. and yes, i hope i'll go for tourneys. hehehe.
okayyy, now i'm having a mindset to study hard! cause PMR is over, here comes SPM! although its 2years more to sit, but still, i have to prepare early! good luck and all the best :D

Harrroooooo :) never been here for WEEKS! forgotten to update my blog aha :D
days pass by as usual. and ohya,
MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR :D
not going to say much here. Enjoy your holiday and school's reopening next week! :)

Told ya~! It's Saturday already!
went caroling in the morning.. from 8.30am - 12pm.
after that wilson, kaylee, sam and i went hiap lee to buy groceries
going to cook homemade burger and Sushi for lunch! :D
reached Kaylee's house at around 1.30pm
start our cooking by then.
we finished cooking at around 2.30pm
YUMMYYY ;D
and i made sushi.. YUMMY!
so blessed! (:
it's around 3.10pm when we finish our lunch
played Mall World for a while..
off to church at 4.15pm ..
until 6.30pm reached home..
and here i am .. (:

It's Friday! I thought today is Saturday! :l lost count the days! gosh, holidays do that everytime!
didn't do much today . Just woke up as usual... went breakfast.. go home.. bla bla bla and yes TENNIS!
whee. i love tennis so much . hahaha! :) had dinner at isaac's place. skipping caroling today.
And yes, i'm addicted to MALL WORLD on FACEBOOK. hehehe

It's Thursday again. next thing you know it's Friday.

Didn't update my blog for quite some time! Was busy these few days. So... let me share what I did since 2nd of December, which is last Friday.

-2nd Dec-
I went down to Kota Kinabalu with my mother to have tennis lessons. I reached KK around 2.15pm. Went lunch with my mother before going for lesson. Apparently it's raining. great. how to play if it rains? I just go to the court and just wait for it to stop. Coach brought Ho Jie Er ( a player i usually train with ) and I to the canteen near by. waited until it stops raining. And it stops. yay! but sadly the court was wet. so we turned out playing Soft Tennis! :) yea.. Went home, take shower and went Suria with my mother to have dinner at Sushi Tei.

-3rd Dec-
Woke up early in the morning to get ready to go to the tennis court! :) reached there at 6.30am. started to warm up cause we'll be having Round Robin Soft Tennis competition! whoooo it's my first time playing soft tennis and also first time for competition! but i just keep it calm and pray before my match. so competition starts at 8am, ended at 11.30am. I played 3 matches and I won 4games every single match. I'm really enjoying and i had fun although i lose. Coach told me I did well in my first competition because I can win 4games in every match! :)

-5th Dec-
I went for mission trip to Kampung Mangalimut together with the All Saint's youths and also my church's youth :) It's my first time joining this mission trip and I had a lot of fun! it's 2 - 3 hours from here. went there for two days, one night. We have this mission trip is to visit the churches and sing carol songs. After the trip, I feel so blessed cause I have a nice home, rooms with aircond, tv, nice foods..

-6th Dec-
reach home at around 1.30pm, took shower and rest. at night, went carolling again from house to house. phew~! so tiring! the last house we visited is my grandma's house. and i was surpirsed to see that shirley and her family was there too! :) both of us cant wait for the Tennis Camp this coming 17th to 21st ! I can spend alot of time with her before she leave here! yay! :D

I don't know what's going on my mind nowadays.
I really don't know why.
I feel like giving up on piano.
and by the time I'm going for piano lesson,
i'll get all moody and mad.
I don't know why.
and today,
I showed my temper on my mum just because I don't wanna go for piano lesson.
I threw books on the floor,
and I got scolded.
I really don't know what's going on :(

My mum just reminded me one thing.
She said I don't appreciate things I have now.
Some of the children don't even got the chance to learn to play piano.
But I have the chance but I just don't appreciate it.
My mum worked so hard for the fees.
and I just wasted everything.
Piano fees, exam fees and everything is not cheap.
My mum drove me back home.
on the way home,
I've got scolded , and scolded and scolded.
she even said she wants to keep my tennis racket and dont let me play anymore.
my heart sank.
that's my hobby. how can you just stop me from playing it?!
I cried.
I'm useless. i'm such a dumbass, i'm stupid.
why do I threat my mum such ways?
I locked myself in my room.
feeling regret, upset for being such useless child.
Slapping myself on the face, telling myself to wake up! wake up! wake up!
I'm late for piano class.
my mum came home and drove me to piano class.

went piano class with an emotional face.
teacher knew what's going on with me cause my mum told her.
she asked me
what's going on my mind?
she told me a lot of things...
she knew there's something on my mind that interrupt my emotion
cause these two days i go for piano class with an emotional face
she said usually I go piano class with a happy face
but now it's different..
she told me if I know what's interrupt my emotion,
solve the problem. and if I dont know what is it,
sit down and think... and pray to god.
yes, i will..
And also thanks to my Coach
for telling me to think positive.
yes I will.

and I hope my mum would still let me go for tennis tomorrow :(
and coach wants me to go for his tennis camp on 17th to 22nd Dec.
training twice a day! I want!! but i have to ask for permission.


I'm sorry, mum.